We all have that point in our lives where we look back on things that we've done and think ... "What the hell was I thinking when I did that?" or, "Why wasn't I thinking enough?" But then again, there are things that make us proud and we look back on it with glory. One that I look back on with pride is Wattpad. The loving and amazing community for reading and writing.
And it has saved my life.
Through Wattpad, I have been able to write stories and read other from many talented and beautiful people from all over the world... And that has been an amazing thing.
Since, I was 14 years old, Wattpad has been my home. I discovered it one glorious day when I typed in "Free Books" on my phone app. It was amazing. I remember the first book that I fell in love with there. I remember the story I ever posted... then deleted. But now as I am approaching the age of 18, heading to college and working a very busy job as well as hold a relationship and social life. I see that Wattpad is becoming a beautiful memory of my past. One that I still wish to hold on to, but I am finding it harder and harder as the days go on to stay in touch with that part of my past.
I know that my writing will always be a part of me and who I am, but I see writing on Wattpad and wanting to have people like my stories... It's become more of a chore rather than a hobby. Whenever I post a chapter or write one, I think, "I hope my fans like this... I hope no one unfollows me because they didn't like my one REAL chapter!" and because of things like that.... I delete all of what I created and decide that I am going to give the people what they want,,,, And that is not me.
I am Leilani. A Samoan-African American woman with strong ambition and a love for reading and writing, who loves hard, but not easy. Who allows someone to come into her life and break her heart because she got the ability to love from her mother. That's who I am. I take my time with my chapters now because I don't want my writing to be a hobby or a chore. I love the fact that I can create a reality with the tip of my pen or the words that I type on a page... Because that is what I need to escape my own harsh reality. That is why I open a book and get lost for hours in a realm that a talented author created, that is why I open the script to a play and fall in love with my character (even if I do have 1 line or 100 lines, whether I'm a minor role or a lead role), that is why I write... To escape. And Wattpad has helped me with that for years.
And for that, I can't even begin to express how grateful to you because Wattpad... You are my savior.
